Carlton

S
1 min readJan 26, 2025

--

i hate the fact that i used to be so hurt. that sometime back then i was super hurt. like a victim. i hate when someone makes me feel small, but when i was hurt i was both small and weak. my feelings used to abused the fuck out of me and what i cant seem to understand is that loving shouldnt hurt that bad. loving shouldnt come with so many FEARS. so many TRAUMA. so many INSULTS. SO MANY TEARS!!!

i endured a lot of disrespect on my part trying to keep my love alive alone. i shouldnt do that. maybe i spent half a year crying, most nights worrying about girls and clubs and alcohols or whether this love i hold dearly is slipping away cz i seem to be alone. ?? i wasnt restless i was hungry and craving for this person . i was grieving the relationship where i was hurt.

when love finds me again, i hope Allah makes it my naseeb to truly be cherished, to be loved, to be treated well and to be spoken nicely, to love me and whatever it is i do, to support me in every way, to be kinder to me than myself, to hold my hand always. i hope im always smiling and troubles barely or doesnt even find us. because to whoever it is, i will love you widely and deeply and i hope my love will do you justice

https://open.spotify.com/track/7uIaBPSTlBaAQr1asfZ3B4?si=6Ldk0UmJRAmyNUVQNCbrIw

--

--

S
S

Written by S

0 Followers

Keep this to your eyes

No responses yet